CLEAR NOVEMBER

DESTINY REALLY  GAVE  ME  A  CHALLENGING YEARS .

TOOK  AWAY  QUITE  A  NUMBER  OF  LOVES ONE  AWAY  FROM ME , AND  CHALLENGE  ME  TO  SURVIVE  WITH  LITTLE AMOUNT  OF  TEARS  AND  SORROW .

2010 CAME  TO ME LIKE  A DREAM . UNEXPECTED  DEATH  TOOK PLACE ONE AFTER  ANOTHER .

BEGINNING OF THE YEARS , ONE OF MY CLOSE  DRAMA MATE  LOST  THE BATTLE AGAINST LEUKEMIA . LEFT ME HERE , WONDERING WHAT DOES IT  TAKE  TO  HAVE HER BACK JUST  FOR  A MOMENT , WHEN I NEEDED HER THE MOST  .

THEN  CAME SWEET  OLD  SEPTEMBER  , THIS OLD SWEET COUPLE , MY UNCLE  AND AUNTY IN THEIR 70S ,  WHO PASSED AWAY  IN A CAR ACCIDENT IN AUS . THEY  REMAINING FLY ALL THE WAY  BACK TO M'SIA , AND  I ACCOMPANY  MY  UNCLE  TO  COLLECT IT IN THE AIR PORT .

LOOKING  AT  MY UNCLE ( THEIR SON ) ( MY GOD DADDY ) , A STRONG MAN , WHO  ALWAYS  LOOK  CHEERFUL  , TRYING HIS  BEST  TO CONTROL  HIS  EMOTION INFRONT OF ME , REALLY  MADE ME MELT  DOWN AND  HOPE THAT FOR JUST  ONE SECOND HE SHOULD BE ME . CRY HIS  HEART OUT , AND LET ME SETTLE THE REST .

A MONTH LATER , MY ENGLISH  TEACHER , ALSO LEFT US HERE , IN THIS CRUEL  WORLD . SHE  LOST  THE BATTLE  AGAINST KIDNEY FAILURE , AND DIE IN A YOUNG AGE .

NOV , THE SECOND LAST  MONTH OF THE YEAR , ANOTHER SHOCKING DEATH CAME AND  HUNTING ME DOWN . A GOOD  AUNTY  OF MINE PASSED AWAY DUE TO SOME ORGAN FAILURE BY A  MINOR  TOOTH EXTRACT .
A  HEALTHY  HUMAN BEING JUST DIE , CAUSE OF A SIMPLE TOOTH EXTRACT .

TOMORROW WILL BE HER SERVICE . I SERIOUSLY DONT REALLY KNOW WHERE DO I FIND THE STRENGTH  TO HANDLE IT .

DEAR DESTINY :
YOU  REALLY  GAVE  ME  A FUNNY YEAR  TO SURVIVE WITH .
LEAVING  ME  MORE AND MORE UNFORGETTABLE MEMORIES TO DEAL WITH .
TODAY ,    TO BE OR NOT TO BE..IS NO LONGER  A QUESTION  ?
IT IS ANSWERED  LONG AGO , BECAUSE IT IS DESTINED .

CHERISH ME , AND LET ME CHERISH YOU , WHILE I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU.

LESSON LEARN TODAY :
WE DONT OWN ANYTHING IN OUR LIFE .
ONCE YOUR SOUL DECIDED TO LEAVE EARTH ,
YOU LEAVE  BEHIND EVERYTHING , ONCE YOU THOUGHT YOU OWN .
DONT THINK HIGHLY  ABOUT  MATERIAL , CHERISH WHAT YOU HAVE NOW , AND THINGS YOU THINK YOU STILL OWN .
ONCE IT IS TIME TO GO , LEAVE BEHIND WHAT  YOU CHERISH WITH NO REGRET .
BECAUSE  YOU  CHERISHED  AND LOVED  THEM ALL YOU COULD , WHILE YOU CAN .