Wednesday, November 3, 2010

CLEAR NOVEMBER

DESTINY REALLY  GAVE  ME  A  CHALLENGING YEARS .

TOOK  AWAY  QUITE  A  NUMBER  OF  LOVES ONE  AWAY  FROM ME , AND  CHALLENGE  ME  TO  SURVIVE  WITH  LITTLE AMOUNT  OF  TEARS  AND  SORROW .

2010 CAME  TO ME LIKE  A DREAM . UNEXPECTED  DEATH  TOOK PLACE ONE AFTER  ANOTHER .

BEGINNING OF THE YEARS , ONE OF MY CLOSE  DRAMA MATE  LOST  THE BATTLE AGAINST LEUKEMIA . LEFT ME HERE , WONDERING WHAT DOES IT  TAKE  TO  HAVE HER BACK JUST  FOR  A MOMENT , WHEN I NEEDED HER THE MOST  .

THEN  CAME SWEET  OLD  SEPTEMBER  , THIS OLD SWEET COUPLE , MY UNCLE  AND AUNTY IN THEIR 70S ,  WHO PASSED AWAY  IN A CAR ACCIDENT IN AUS . THEY  REMAINING FLY ALL THE WAY  BACK TO M'SIA , AND  I ACCOMPANY  MY  UNCLE  TO  COLLECT IT IN THE AIR PORT .

LOOKING  AT  MY UNCLE ( THEIR SON ) ( MY GOD DADDY ) , A STRONG MAN , WHO  ALWAYS  LOOK  CHEERFUL  , TRYING HIS  BEST  TO CONTROL  HIS  EMOTION INFRONT OF ME , REALLY  MADE ME MELT  DOWN AND  HOPE THAT FOR JUST  ONE SECOND HE SHOULD BE ME . CRY HIS  HEART OUT , AND LET ME SETTLE THE REST .

A MONTH LATER , MY ENGLISH  TEACHER , ALSO LEFT US HERE , IN THIS CRUEL  WORLD . SHE  LOST  THE BATTLE  AGAINST KIDNEY FAILURE , AND DIE IN A YOUNG AGE .

NOV , THE SECOND LAST  MONTH OF THE YEAR , ANOTHER SHOCKING DEATH CAME AND  HUNTING ME DOWN . A GOOD  AUNTY  OF MINE PASSED AWAY DUE TO SOME ORGAN FAILURE BY A  MINOR  TOOTH EXTRACT .
A  HEALTHY  HUMAN BEING JUST DIE , CAUSE OF A SIMPLE TOOTH EXTRACT .

TOMORROW WILL BE HER SERVICE . I SERIOUSLY DONT REALLY KNOW WHERE DO I FIND THE STRENGTH  TO HANDLE IT .

DEAR DESTINY :
YOU  REALLY  GAVE  ME  A FUNNY YEAR  TO SURVIVE WITH .
LEAVING  ME  MORE AND MORE UNFORGETTABLE MEMORIES TO DEAL WITH .
TODAY ,    TO BE OR NOT TO BE..IS NO LONGER  A QUESTION  ?
IT IS ANSWERED  LONG AGO , BECAUSE IT IS DESTINED .

CHERISH ME , AND LET ME CHERISH YOU , WHILE I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU.

LESSON LEARN TODAY :
WE DONT OWN ANYTHING IN OUR LIFE .
ONCE YOUR SOUL DECIDED TO LEAVE EARTH ,
YOU LEAVE  BEHIND EVERYTHING , ONCE YOU THOUGHT YOU OWN .
DONT THINK HIGHLY  ABOUT  MATERIAL , CHERISH WHAT YOU HAVE NOW , AND THINGS YOU THINK YOU STILL OWN .
ONCE IT IS TIME TO GO , LEAVE BEHIND WHAT  YOU CHERISH WITH NO REGRET .
BECAUSE  YOU  CHERISHED  AND LOVED  THEM ALL YOU COULD , WHILE YOU CAN .

MY BELOVED AUNTY ANN

FEW  DAYS  AGO , I WENT TO THIS  COFFEE  SHOP TO BUY MY BREAKFAST .

I MET THIS AUNTY , THE  WAY SHE  MOVES  AND SPEAKS  REMIND ME OF  SOMEONE...

I  GOT  BACK  TO  THE CAR , AND TOLD  THE  STORY  TO MY  MOMMY .

AND  FOUND OUT  THAT  ,  THE  LADY  IS  ACTUALLY  AUNTY ANN 'S  ELDER SISTER .

I SAID  WHAT A SMALL WORLD , AND ALSO REMINDED ME , IT HAS BEEN SOME TIMES , I HAVEN BUMP INTO  AUNTY ANN .

BUT LIFE IS ALWAYS  AN UNFAIR GAME . 

AFTER  TWO  DAYS , I CAME BACK HOME AND FOUND OUT , AUNTY ANN PASSED AWAY .
AND HER DEATH WAS SO TRAGIC , I AM SO SHOCKED , I SOAK  MY PILLOW  IN TEARS  AGAIN .=="

SHE  HAD  THIS  BROKEN TOOTH , SO WENT TO THE  DENTIST TO GET IT DONE .
NORMAL PROCEDURE .
SHE CAME BACK HOME , IN PAIN . BUT SHE HOLD HERSELF BACK AND GO THOUGH THE PAIN . THERE WERE NO PAIN KILLER  OR  ANY MEDICATION GIVEN BY THE DENTIST .
THE NEXT DAY , SHE STARTED HAVING FEVER .
THE THIRD DAY , SHE PASSED AWAY DUE TO INFECTION .

A MINOR TOOTH EXTRACT  , TOOK HER LIFE  AWAY .
THE ONLY  WORD TO DESCRIBE IS "TRAGIC "

AUNTY ANN :
*IS  MY MOMMY'S SIFU .
*SHE TAUGHT HER HOW TO BAKE ALL THESE  FRESH , HEALTHY DELICIOUS CAKES AND PASTRY .
*SHE IS ALSO THE ONE , WHO TAUGHT ME TO GO INTO THE "MI LK  DIET "
*EVERY TIME , AFTER A LONG DAY IN SCHOOL . SOME FRESH BAKE BUNS OR CAKE WILL ALWAYS WELCOME ME , WHEN I STEP INTO THE HOUSE .
BECAUSE OF YOU , YOU TAUGH MY MOMMY TO BAKE , AND MAKING ME THE HAPPIEST  CHILD LIVING ON EARTH .





TO ME:
SHE IS  AN IDEAL MOTHER .
SHE  TREAT HER  TWO  BEAUTIFUL DAUGTHER  LIKE PRINCESS .
SHE  IS  LOYAL  TO HER HUBBY .
SHE  HAS  THIS  AMAZING TALENT IN BAKING .
SHE  ALWAYS  WELCOME ME....WITH A WARM BRIGHT SMILE ...
SHE   IS  A  GREAT  INSPIRATION FOR ME .

I AM SO SHOCK , SHE IS  NO LONGER WITH US RIGHT NOW .
IT IS SO TRUE , YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU MISS TILL IT IS GONE .
CHERISH  THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU ,
LOVE THEM , LIKE THE WAY YOU SHOULD .




THIS IS CUTE BELOVED AUNTY ANN ...^^
I WILL ALWAYS MISS YOU....SO..........SO.............MUCH .

POEM  SPECIALLY FOR AUNTY ANN....
If tears could build a stairway


And memories were a lane,

I would walk right up to heaven

To bring you home again.

No farewell words were spoken.

No time to say good-bye.

You were gone before we knew it,

And only God knows why.

My heart still aches in sadness

And secret tears still flow.

What it meant to lose you,

No one will ever know.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

THe MiSSing PuZZle .....

Have  you  ever experience a time in your  LIFE ,

For  just a moment you pause and ask yourself " What the hell am i doing ? "


Is  this what i really want ? Is this what I am  suppose  to do ?

We  treat  LIFE  as  an uncompleted  puzzle .







We  use our  imagination to  picture the puzzle , and try our  best  to fit  each  pieces together .

Don't you think so ?
Life is certainly a joke .
We  were taught to create dreams , have high ambition since young .
As time goes by , we created all these silly , challenging ambition  in our life , and trying to work our way up to achieve and  win it . 
 
We first  finish a 100 piece Puzzle , feel satisfied , but asking for more .
Then  came  the 500  piece Puzzle  , finished it . Felt  happy , but think you can do better .
NeXt challenge the 5000 piece Puzzle . Complete the puzzle , and thinking who am i kidding , i am better than that .
Finally , we lost control  ourself , and decided  to  picked up a fight with the 10,000 piece puzzle . I may not say , this sounds like a losing battle , but I can sure say , this is time consuming , and indeed a struggle .

Imagine a box  of 10,ooo piece puzzle in front of you .
You open it . Try dividing all the pieces , according to shapes and colours .
 Then  the journey starts , we spend time , days , to complete it .
If you are good , You will complete it in no time .
But if you suck in it , god knows when you ever gonna finish IT.

Puzzle after Puzzle , when will there be an end ?
When you are trying your best to complete each pieces , ignoring other element of life ,
You created yourselves a missing puzzle piece in life .

When you  completed the  9999 pieces of puzzles, by fitting  them  together ,
In that moment , You found out that you lost  one tiny piece .
You curse yourselves , and ask "why me "
May be a few flips  and some tears .
But after that drastic  moment , you took a deep breath and calm down .
Cleared your  mind , and think ed back  ,
how much time did you spend  for that puzzle ,
how much you missed in LIFE .

That  moment , you ask yourselves izzit worth it ?
When you took so much time eager to finish the puzzle you  pictured , you  missed the biggest  puzzle  piece in life .
You  lost  your LIFE .

I understand that everyone had their own puzzle in life , but on your journey fixing up these pieces , remember , there are more things waiting for you to complete , rather  than a crappy Puzzle .