Sunday, November 14, 2010

SEARCHING FOR AN OPEN WINDOW

WHEN  A DOOR  CLOSES , YOU  CAN  ALWAYS  FIND  YOURSELF  A  TINY  OPENED WINDOW .

IT IS ALL UP TO YOU . ARE  YOU  STILL LOOKING  BACK ? OR  YOU  ARE  READY  TO LOOK FORWARD ?

THEY  ALWAYS  SAY  THAT  LIFE  IS  A  STAGE .
WE PERFORM  AND  HOPE  TO  SHINE  ONCE  IN A FULL MOON .

LOOKING  BACK  AT  THE QUOTE , WHAT  IF  THE  DOOR  IS  NOW SHUT  TIGHT , WHILE  I AM  LOOKING  FORWARD  TO  MOVE ON , BUT ....
GOSH !!!!!!
WHERE  THE HELL IS  THAT  TINY  WINDOW LOCATED ?
I CANT  FIND  MY  OPEN  WINDOW !!!!!!

Friday, November 12, 2010

100%

HAVE you  ever accomplish something that  made  you  so  proud  of  yourself  in that moment , you  hope  that  time  will just  stop and  last  forever .

Imagine  you  holding  your  100% ( full mark )  maths  exam  paper , and  you  maths  teacher  is  praising you in front  of  the whole class , in that  moment , you just hope  time  can pause , last just a little  longer .

You  came  back  home , showed  the paper to  your  parents , you parents  bought  you  a  new  toys  as  a  reward  for all your  hard work . You felt  the  sense  of  accomplishment and  hope  this  sense  of  accomplishment  can  last  forever .

We  always  searching  for perfection , because  we know perfection can lead  to  praises  , benefit , and  the  sense  of  accomplishment .

WE may  find  the  perfect  dress .
WE may  find  the  perfect  words , in the perfect  time .
We may  score  the  perfect  score  in our  test .
We  may  also  plan  the  perfect wedding  .

All  of  these  perfection may  last  in your memory  forever .
Just  closing  your eye , you still can  remember  every  details , event  that  gave  you  the 100%  satisfaction .



BUT WHAT  IF  YOU  FOUND  A 100% GUY IN YOU LIFE , AND HE IS NO LONGER BY YOUR SIDE  ANYMORE ?

IT  is  just  the  same  feeling , when you  found  a dress  that  suit  you so well ( before ) , now  it  no  longer  fit  you , cause you grow  older  and taller .

YOU  may  put  the  dress  a side  , and  keep it  in your  closet  , cause  it  is  sentimental  to you . YOU  may  start wearing  , other  beautiful  dress , but  it  can  never  ever  replace the  sentimental  dress  that  you  once  wore  and  made  you  feel  perfect .

This is  just  the  same concept  as  meeting the "perfect  match "
YOU  think that  you  met  the one , he is so perfect  for  you .
YOU  try  your  best  to  maintain yourself  so that  he will be  by  your side  and last  forever .
BUT , who  are  we kidding ?
How  the hell , will this  last  forever .

I  came  across  with  this  friend  of  mine , who  is  also  a  "Virgo"  girl just  like  me posted :
" i felt  in love  with a 100% man , i lost  him , and i dont knw , how  m i gonna  find  another  perfect  one "in  facebook


Virgo  girls  always  tend  to  search  for  perfection .... silly ..annoying .....
pain  in  the a**
but ...it is kinda  true ...

BUT ...
WHO are  we  kidding with the perfect one ?
People  change  from time to time , nothing last  or  remain  the  same  forever .

If  destiny  played  a joke  with  you , and gave  to  a  chance  to  met  the  perfect one .
Cherish  the perfect  as  long  as  you  want .
But  if  it  didn't  last ,
 let  it  go , and learn   the  mistake .
Think  back  ..................
at  lease , destiny  gave  you  the chance  to  learn  and be  with  the perfect  one .

Why  are  you  still looking  back , for  something that  time cant  turn back , and  not  cherish  the one  that  are  by  your side  waiting for you .

You  always  says  that  destiny  will decide  for  you .
But  if  you don't  help yourselves  and  let  destiny passed  you  by .
YOU will always  be  YOU .
helpless ..................................

This  inspiration came  from  pretty  K****
MOVe on babe .... 
lov ya...........

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

CLEAR NOVEMBER

DESTINY REALLY  GAVE  ME  A  CHALLENGING YEARS .

TOOK  AWAY  QUITE  A  NUMBER  OF  LOVES ONE  AWAY  FROM ME , AND  CHALLENGE  ME  TO  SURVIVE  WITH  LITTLE AMOUNT  OF  TEARS  AND  SORROW .

2010 CAME  TO ME LIKE  A DREAM . UNEXPECTED  DEATH  TOOK PLACE ONE AFTER  ANOTHER .

BEGINNING OF THE YEARS , ONE OF MY CLOSE  DRAMA MATE  LOST  THE BATTLE AGAINST LEUKEMIA . LEFT ME HERE , WONDERING WHAT DOES IT  TAKE  TO  HAVE HER BACK JUST  FOR  A MOMENT , WHEN I NEEDED HER THE MOST  .

THEN  CAME SWEET  OLD  SEPTEMBER  , THIS OLD SWEET COUPLE , MY UNCLE  AND AUNTY IN THEIR 70S ,  WHO PASSED AWAY  IN A CAR ACCIDENT IN AUS . THEY  REMAINING FLY ALL THE WAY  BACK TO M'SIA , AND  I ACCOMPANY  MY  UNCLE  TO  COLLECT IT IN THE AIR PORT .

LOOKING  AT  MY UNCLE ( THEIR SON ) ( MY GOD DADDY ) , A STRONG MAN , WHO  ALWAYS  LOOK  CHEERFUL  , TRYING HIS  BEST  TO CONTROL  HIS  EMOTION INFRONT OF ME , REALLY  MADE ME MELT  DOWN AND  HOPE THAT FOR JUST  ONE SECOND HE SHOULD BE ME . CRY HIS  HEART OUT , AND LET ME SETTLE THE REST .

A MONTH LATER , MY ENGLISH  TEACHER , ALSO LEFT US HERE , IN THIS CRUEL  WORLD . SHE  LOST  THE BATTLE  AGAINST KIDNEY FAILURE , AND DIE IN A YOUNG AGE .

NOV , THE SECOND LAST  MONTH OF THE YEAR , ANOTHER SHOCKING DEATH CAME AND  HUNTING ME DOWN . A GOOD  AUNTY  OF MINE PASSED AWAY DUE TO SOME ORGAN FAILURE BY A  MINOR  TOOTH EXTRACT .
A  HEALTHY  HUMAN BEING JUST DIE , CAUSE OF A SIMPLE TOOTH EXTRACT .

TOMORROW WILL BE HER SERVICE . I SERIOUSLY DONT REALLY KNOW WHERE DO I FIND THE STRENGTH  TO HANDLE IT .

DEAR DESTINY :
YOU  REALLY  GAVE  ME  A FUNNY YEAR  TO SURVIVE WITH .
LEAVING  ME  MORE AND MORE UNFORGETTABLE MEMORIES TO DEAL WITH .
TODAY ,    TO BE OR NOT TO BE..IS NO LONGER  A QUESTION  ?
IT IS ANSWERED  LONG AGO , BECAUSE IT IS DESTINED .

CHERISH ME , AND LET ME CHERISH YOU , WHILE I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU.

LESSON LEARN TODAY :
WE DONT OWN ANYTHING IN OUR LIFE .
ONCE YOUR SOUL DECIDED TO LEAVE EARTH ,
YOU LEAVE  BEHIND EVERYTHING , ONCE YOU THOUGHT YOU OWN .
DONT THINK HIGHLY  ABOUT  MATERIAL , CHERISH WHAT YOU HAVE NOW , AND THINGS YOU THINK YOU STILL OWN .
ONCE IT IS TIME TO GO , LEAVE BEHIND WHAT  YOU CHERISH WITH NO REGRET .
BECAUSE  YOU  CHERISHED  AND LOVED  THEM ALL YOU COULD , WHILE YOU CAN .

MY BELOVED AUNTY ANN

FEW  DAYS  AGO , I WENT TO THIS  COFFEE  SHOP TO BUY MY BREAKFAST .

I MET THIS AUNTY , THE  WAY SHE  MOVES  AND SPEAKS  REMIND ME OF  SOMEONE...

I  GOT  BACK  TO  THE CAR , AND TOLD  THE  STORY  TO MY  MOMMY .

AND  FOUND OUT  THAT  ,  THE  LADY  IS  ACTUALLY  AUNTY ANN 'S  ELDER SISTER .

I SAID  WHAT A SMALL WORLD , AND ALSO REMINDED ME , IT HAS BEEN SOME TIMES , I HAVEN BUMP INTO  AUNTY ANN .

BUT LIFE IS ALWAYS  AN UNFAIR GAME . 

AFTER  TWO  DAYS , I CAME BACK HOME AND FOUND OUT , AUNTY ANN PASSED AWAY .
AND HER DEATH WAS SO TRAGIC , I AM SO SHOCKED , I SOAK  MY PILLOW  IN TEARS  AGAIN .=="

SHE  HAD  THIS  BROKEN TOOTH , SO WENT TO THE  DENTIST TO GET IT DONE .
NORMAL PROCEDURE .
SHE CAME BACK HOME , IN PAIN . BUT SHE HOLD HERSELF BACK AND GO THOUGH THE PAIN . THERE WERE NO PAIN KILLER  OR  ANY MEDICATION GIVEN BY THE DENTIST .
THE NEXT DAY , SHE STARTED HAVING FEVER .
THE THIRD DAY , SHE PASSED AWAY DUE TO INFECTION .

A MINOR TOOTH EXTRACT  , TOOK HER LIFE  AWAY .
THE ONLY  WORD TO DESCRIBE IS "TRAGIC "

AUNTY ANN :
*IS  MY MOMMY'S SIFU .
*SHE TAUGHT HER HOW TO BAKE ALL THESE  FRESH , HEALTHY DELICIOUS CAKES AND PASTRY .
*SHE IS ALSO THE ONE , WHO TAUGHT ME TO GO INTO THE "MI LK  DIET "
*EVERY TIME , AFTER A LONG DAY IN SCHOOL . SOME FRESH BAKE BUNS OR CAKE WILL ALWAYS WELCOME ME , WHEN I STEP INTO THE HOUSE .
BECAUSE OF YOU , YOU TAUGH MY MOMMY TO BAKE , AND MAKING ME THE HAPPIEST  CHILD LIVING ON EARTH .





TO ME:
SHE IS  AN IDEAL MOTHER .
SHE  TREAT HER  TWO  BEAUTIFUL DAUGTHER  LIKE PRINCESS .
SHE  IS  LOYAL  TO HER HUBBY .
SHE  HAS  THIS  AMAZING TALENT IN BAKING .
SHE  ALWAYS  WELCOME ME....WITH A WARM BRIGHT SMILE ...
SHE   IS  A  GREAT  INSPIRATION FOR ME .

I AM SO SHOCK , SHE IS  NO LONGER WITH US RIGHT NOW .
IT IS SO TRUE , YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU MISS TILL IT IS GONE .
CHERISH  THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU ,
LOVE THEM , LIKE THE WAY YOU SHOULD .




THIS IS CUTE BELOVED AUNTY ANN ...^^
I WILL ALWAYS MISS YOU....SO..........SO.............MUCH .

POEM  SPECIALLY FOR AUNTY ANN....
If tears could build a stairway


And memories were a lane,

I would walk right up to heaven

To bring you home again.

No farewell words were spoken.

No time to say good-bye.

You were gone before we knew it,

And only God knows why.

My heart still aches in sadness

And secret tears still flow.

What it meant to lose you,

No one will ever know.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

THe MiSSing PuZZle .....

Have  you  ever experience a time in your  LIFE ,

For  just a moment you pause and ask yourself " What the hell am i doing ? "


Is  this what i really want ? Is this what I am  suppose  to do ?

We  treat  LIFE  as  an uncompleted  puzzle .







We  use our  imagination to  picture the puzzle , and try our  best  to fit  each  pieces together .

Don't you think so ?
Life is certainly a joke .
We  were taught to create dreams , have high ambition since young .
As time goes by , we created all these silly , challenging ambition  in our life , and trying to work our way up to achieve and  win it . 
 
We first  finish a 100 piece Puzzle , feel satisfied , but asking for more .
Then  came  the 500  piece Puzzle  , finished it . Felt  happy , but think you can do better .
NeXt challenge the 5000 piece Puzzle . Complete the puzzle , and thinking who am i kidding , i am better than that .
Finally , we lost control  ourself , and decided  to  picked up a fight with the 10,000 piece puzzle . I may not say , this sounds like a losing battle , but I can sure say , this is time consuming , and indeed a struggle .

Imagine a box  of 10,ooo piece puzzle in front of you .
You open it . Try dividing all the pieces , according to shapes and colours .
 Then  the journey starts , we spend time , days , to complete it .
If you are good , You will complete it in no time .
But if you suck in it , god knows when you ever gonna finish IT.

Puzzle after Puzzle , when will there be an end ?
When you are trying your best to complete each pieces , ignoring other element of life ,
You created yourselves a missing puzzle piece in life .

When you  completed the  9999 pieces of puzzles, by fitting  them  together ,
In that moment , You found out that you lost  one tiny piece .
You curse yourselves , and ask "why me "
May be a few flips  and some tears .
But after that drastic  moment , you took a deep breath and calm down .
Cleared your  mind , and think ed back  ,
how much time did you spend  for that puzzle ,
how much you missed in LIFE .

That  moment , you ask yourselves izzit worth it ?
When you took so much time eager to finish the puzzle you  pictured , you  missed the biggest  puzzle  piece in life .
You  lost  your LIFE .

I understand that everyone had their own puzzle in life , but on your journey fixing up these pieces , remember , there are more things waiting for you to complete , rather  than a crappy Puzzle .

Friday, October 29, 2010

adele rise of the mummy

ADELE - THE RISE OF THE MUMMY


Today went for a movie with my uni buddies and decided to give ADELE , rise the mummy a try .
i feel that every show i watch , there are something to learn from it , or at lease leave you with a slight impression .

This the the beautiful , powerful Adele . A French girl , who is tough , a knowledge seeker , caring , strong , and powerful . ( the ideal women )

The main reason she wants to  rise the mummy from the dead , is to save her twin sister , who had an accident  during a tennis tournament  with Adele .

This is what i learned in the story ,
Adele and her sister are twins . Adele is born with a smart brain , but her sister , who born 4 min later , born with beauty .
On their 20s , Adele twin sister was teasing her , that she is the one who born with good looks . So both of them got into a tennis tournament ( to express their anger at each other ) , an accident occurred when Adele hits the tennis ball with rage , the ball end up knocking her twin sister's head . The twin sister fall to the ground and with slow motion , the hair stick she was wearing , came of , and the sharp part land on the ground and poke through the brain . ( tragic indeed)

* Why must we always compare , who looks better , who sound better ? when everyone is Unix in their own way .

Continue with he story , the twin sister end up surviving , but she remain paralyse . YUP , not dead , but PARALYSE ! ( kinda impossible )
So Adele felt so sorry , she tries her best to rise the mummy , because ancient believe that the mummy doctor have to power  to return a man's soul or , we call it life .

* Adele choose to keep her twin sister a live by not pulling the sharp hair stick and stable into her twin sister's head . She choose to go on an adventure and seek help . Avoiding Grief .


if  you are curious , this is what a hair stick looks like . Imagine , this poking through your skull .

* People tend to try their best to avoid grief .Sometimes , things happen for a reason , sometimes things just happen . Whether , it is an accident or not . Take it as a challenge . 

THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I LEARNED IN THIS MOVIE IS ALWAYS TRUST IN YOUR SIX SENSE .

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

JUDGEMENT

JUDGEMENT

Ever heard people saying " DON'T JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER ? "

If you haven , for heaven sake , flip some books , or google it on net .

The society today tent to have this so call " rights " to judge others .

A very common example , walking down the street , you can see teenagers , from size 2 to size zero =="

The society tend to have this perceptive that , they have to right to label and judge others , according to what ?

A BOOK ?
A CELEBRITIES ?
A COVER PAGE MAGAZINE ?

Watching those reality shows on TV ,
listening to those judges , telling you what went wrong ,
"YOU SUCK IN SINGING !"
" YOUR POST IS TERRIBLE !"
" YOUR NOT SKINNY ENOUGH !"
" YOUR NOT PRETTY ENOUGH !"

Who the hell told them , this is the right way to sing , dance , pose ?
WHO the hell gave them the right to judge others ?
People now tend to judge others by trend , You must be this skinny , this tall , to be a model .
You must have this kind of voice and looks to be an artist !

TOTAL CRAPS.!!!!!1

Because of this  foolishness ,
the society today tend to have lower self esteem ,
girls tend to be not health conscious but end up Anorexia ( eating disorder )
People , man or woman starts judging their own looks , forgetting the based Principal " the natural you "
Everyone is special , one way or another ,
don't tell me rubbish that you are not good enough , you are over weight , you are unhappy with what you have .

You  should be grateful , for what you have , Cause god gave you what you have today , for a purpose .
You think he is so free , randomly , torture you  by  giving  u ugly looks ?
Don't be silly !
Wake up ! Stand Tall !
Everyone is Unix , one way or another .
Ask yourself , who gave you the right to label others , and who the hell gave other the right to judge you .

STAND STRONG AND BE PROUD OF WHO ARE YOU AND WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE !